Thing's are Looking Up

It's been a while since I've been here.

Nobody misses me, though haaaaaa haaaaaaa

It's okay. I understand!

Life's sort of falling into place. I'm not as sad as I used to be. Friends are nicer than usual. Not sure why.., maybe it's an age thing

I just need a job so that I can finally buy things.

Insomnia

I have some weird anxiety going on right now.  I'm not even really looking forward to anything.

Restless.  I guess I can blame the nap I had that started at 9, but I've done that multiple times and still managed to fall asleep.

I went to the gym hourrrrrs ago, and i'm not the least tired right now.

Class starts in about an hour, whoopidy dooo..

SLEEP, I WISH YOU LIKED ME AS MUCH AS I LIKE YOU

Crossing Forbidden Territory

Not sure if i'm into you.  I shouldn't be.

Can't help but feel the need to be around you, though.

We're good friends. That's all we should be.  Nothing's changed, we've always acted this way.  A little too close for comfort, but that's not to say we aren't comfortable.

We're pretty much together in everyone else's eyes, but we aren't in our eyes.  That's strange, don't you think?

I know deep down I don't want to be with you, which is why I feel strange for having these thoughts.

We wont work, I know it.  We know it.  Or is it just me that knows it?


:siiigh:

Grammys

Haven't really been paying much attention to the popular music scene lately but I'm actually anticipating the show tonight.

There's a few performances that I really want to see and watching the live red carpet got me pumped up.

Really strange considering I barely listen to radio, let alone, watch much television.

I wonder if anything crazy will happen tonight

the magic of speeding

kind of slipped while driving a while back.. got caught speeding

ruined my night, of course.  but this is not to say i didn't have it coming.

i do have a bit of road rage and I like to drive fast, it makes me feel like i'm more in control.

i know it's dumb and dangerous, so i try hard not to go over the speed limit too much when i'm in a hurry.

I enrolled in online traffic school, and it's actually interesting.  Some parts are boring but it seems ok for the most part so far.


anyways people, don't speed and get caught OR you'll be entertained with traffic school

oh, and you probably reduce your chances of dying but meh. (kidding)

Update on Life

Life's slow at the moment.

Kind of stuck in that area where you feel a bit worthless and nothing's going your way.. but this is expected when emo-like stuff happens.

I'm sure I'll bounce back from it soon. Hope you're all doing well!

I'd like to learn how to do a back flip someday.

Denial

I continuously put myself into situations that aren't asked for, let alone appreciated.

I sacrifice so much, and for what?

It seems selfish of me to expect the same, but I can't help but feel betrayed when the tables are turned and I stand alone.

You never asked me to do this.  You didn't have to.  That's how much I cared -- I would have done anything for you.

I can't believe this.

school's out

Easy quarter this time around.

Next will be terrible.

What are my plans for this Winter break? Not much.

Actually it'll probably be dull for the first few weeks then it'll rise to awesomeness then quickly die back down.


Maybe i'll update this daily again... who knows!

Life at the moment

I may have scared a couple people with the last post. If you were one of them, take it as advice!

Weather is finally beginning to chill and it seems like it's time to bust out the jackets and sweaters.

I used to be big on fashion but as of late, i'm not too concerned about impressing anyone.  This may also be caused by my laziness and idgaf attitude.

It appears as though many people who were here before have disappeared or quit but I do wish to continue this blog because it's one of the only places I can speak my mind freely.

Hope you're all still alive after Black Friday!

Constant Fapping May Make You Suck in Bed

Do you frequently masturbate?

You've probably learned from many sources that masturbation is actually healthy for you.

Although this is true, many individuals don't realize what affect this may have on their sex life...

Trouble Sleeping

It's been years that I've faced this dilemma of sleepless nights so I finally thought I'd do something about it.

I recently bought Melatonin in hopes that it can help get me sleeping easier.  I didn't think this was too drastic a measure considering it's 'natural' so hopefully any side-effects will be extremely rare for me.

I tried one a few days ago and I must say that it was one of the best nights of sleep I've had in a while.  I woke up feeling completely rested and I was far from groggy.

As much as this miracle pill has helped me, I don't want to become dependent on it and would still like to try more natural ways.

Any tips?  Thanks.

Going back In Time

Have you ever thought about going back in time with the knowledge you have now?

I have always wanted to do that just for the hell of it. Ahhhh if only it were possible.

I swear I'd be such a smart-badass in preschool.

Hurry up time machines and get to earth already!

The Internet needs an upgrade

I've been getting extremely bored browsing around online.

There could be many reasons for this, but I feel like all content is so easily accessible so it's less appealing than it was before.

This isn't a complaint, I love the internet.

I just fear the monotony may become overwhelming with time.

What happens after the internet?

Actions speak louder than words

Some people talk. Less people do.

I see it all the time. The what if's, could have, should have.. etc.

Why not just take action?

You may say this is easier said than done, or you can actually start and get stuff done.

I'd like to be that person and I WILL.

Rain

I used to hate the rain.

It made me slightly depressed in a sense.. gray skies, loud thunder, heavy pouring.

But now, I like it.  Almost wish it would occur more often.

I like the nostalgic feeling it gives me, and the slight comfort from the sounds of each drop.  The thunder doesn't scare me much, and lightning looks pretty amazing.

Rain, come back! My car needs a wash.

Writers block

I don't really have writers block I'm just at a loss for topics.

I can easily write in this everyday about nonsense but I'm not too sure that'd be entertaining for anyone.  Maybe I should revert this back to what it was in the beginning, a blog about my feelings.

Yeah.

Well, I mean I have been doing that already but.. I guess i'm a bit more hesitant with the topics I post because there are actually people reading. (by the way, you are all awesome!)

Anyways, I've been changing a lot in my life recently.. hoping to be a bit more goal focused so I can get stuff done.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

My mind is like a line of ants

First off, I have a small ant problem in my bathroom.

Yes, I flush.

They seem to be coming from the bathtub faucet, which is really strange to me, and they're coming in and out for no apparent reason.

Anyways, I left a drop of honey out (before I knew where they were coming from) just to find them.  Few minutes later, a huge line formed. I wiped that honey off and killed the rest (sorry ant lovers).

I think the point of this post was to say that my mind is completely focused on getting something, unless someone cuts me off.

A.D.D. status to the max.

what goes through the mind of the naked person in class?

I'm currently enrolled in life drawing and for those who don't know, we basically draw humans.

Today, our first model showed up for us to draw.  He was quick to take his clothes off and stand in the middle.

Lots of giggles here and there from the classmates but he didn't seem phased by it at all.  I guess he's been doing this for a while.

He stood there, with all his stuff dangling in the cold as over 30 students stared at his naked body trying to copy it onto their drawing paper.

I wonder what he was thinking?  Seems so uncomfortable hahaha

that $$$ is halting me from being happy

No, I'm not talking about materialistic things that I HAVE to have or else I'll die, it's more of a constant stressor that's embedded in the back of my mind.

It sucks having to be frugal with money just so you have enough to pay rent and stay in school.  I'm not one to go out to eat on a daily basis nor am I one to buy spontaneously.  I wish I could, but there's really no room for any of that.

I guess I can be glad that there's a roof over my head for now.  I'm not sure how much longer I can take bread, water, and vitamins.

Long story short, screw you money! *looks for more jobs*

hot or cold? My body doesn't know

It's over 107 degrees right now and you can literally slap the heat by just moving a little.

Since the sun's draining all of my energy, my brain started thinking of random things.  Specifically, which would I choose to live in if I could only choose one -- extremely hot weather or freezing cold?

I sat here and thought seriously about each one.  There are pros with each but all were outweighed by their cons.    I still don't know which I'd choose.

Anyways, it's too hot to type right now so if you readers could only choose one, which would it be and why?