that $$$ is halting me from being happy

No, I'm not talking about materialistic things that I HAVE to have or else I'll die, it's more of a constant stressor that's embedded in the back of my mind.

It sucks having to be frugal with money just so you have enough to pay rent and stay in school.  I'm not one to go out to eat on a daily basis nor am I one to buy spontaneously.  I wish I could, but there's really no room for any of that.

I guess I can be glad that there's a roof over my head for now.  I'm not sure how much longer I can take bread, water, and vitamins.

Long story short, screw you money! *looks for more jobs*

hot or cold? My body doesn't know

It's over 107 degrees right now and you can literally slap the heat by just moving a little.

Since the sun's draining all of my energy, my brain started thinking of random things.  Specifically, which would I choose to live in if I could only choose one -- extremely hot weather or freezing cold?

I sat here and thought seriously about each one.  There are pros with each but all were outweighed by their cons.    I still don't know which I'd choose.

Anyways, it's too hot to type right now so if you readers could only choose one, which would it be and why?

professors are confusing

I'm enrolled in a class where the professor presents us with a project but leaves out any detail of what she wants done.

She just wants to see what we can come up with.  This is either win or lose for the students because she may have a bias for certain designs so she will always give higher grades to those who do things the way she expects them to be done.

She also said the C students get farther in life.  It's as if she wants us to push for a C letter grade.

"Those who fail the most, succeed," she says.

I can understand the whole concept of doing things over and over until you get it right so that you can learn from past mistakes, but the way she gave her lecture made that point very confusing.

I guess she wants to use the C students to help her change her style or something.  Not sure what to think of this professor.

I'd announce something

It may be a bit more difficult for me to update this thing as much as before due to classes starting.

I want to give a formal apology to all my readers who are expecting a new post per day -- i'm sorry!

I'll try my best to keep this as updated as possible, though.  Thanks for all of your support, and I really hope this doesn't turn into a place where I get mad at homework/assignments! (I'm already dreading it)

Anyways, stay strong people! If you're feeling alone, just know I appreciate all of you. (cornyyyyyy but true!)

Is it really that wrong to be truthful to children?

Before you think that I hate children or anything, I really don't!

Some kids are actually really nice except those ones that are extremely misbehaved and attack you with toys and bite your face. (this did not happen to me by the way, just saying)

I'm well aware that morally, you should refrain from being too truthful with children.  I completely understand that fact, but I feel like there's a certain point when you should somehow encourage them to excel in whatever it is that you keep lying to them about.

Let's take dancing for example.  You tell a kid to dance and they do.  Sure their wobbly arms and constant jumping may seem cute, but really.. IT SUCKS -- but you can't tell them that. You begin to encourage them over and over no matter how bad they are.  Then they build this extreme confidence and think they're really good when they aren't.

I'm laughing as I write this because the topic does sound really mean.. but I honestly feel that if you tell them in a way that doesn't make them cry or kill their dreams, it's okay to teach them/tell them the correct way of doing things.

Just don't be a jerk to them when you do correct them!

I really hope i'm not the only one that feels this way. *dies*

'nothing' is a lie

What's wrong? Nothing. (followed by awkward passive silence and avoidance)

To give an answer like this is just asking for an unnecessary war.

There's really only a few times when the person genuinely means it when they reply with nothing.

that I need to calm down with my multitasking

If you've been following me for a while now, you probably have noticed that I always feel the need to do something.

I spend too much time thinking of ways to do everything at the same time instead of actually doing those things.

Why do I even plan a strategy to get multiple things done instead of just doing them? I know better than this, yet I continue to do it.

*slaps self*

Focus! Get it done! Then move on! You'll be amazed at how much you've accomplished!

There's an 80% chance I will disregard these proven methods that work for me. I seriously need to follow my own advice

There's way too many things that I want to do

I feel like I want to accomplish so many things, but at the same time I don't want to put the effort into doing it.

I guess it just feels so overwhelming.

It would be great if I was consistently organized and avoided procrastination.. but that's far from the truth.

I know I'll get to everything I can eventually, but I just wish i had that motivation to get at it as soon as possible.


If any of you readers have any time management/organization/success tips/motivational words, feel free to share!

you don't know what you have 'til it's gone

or do you?

I used to believe in this saying.  I felt like at times I do take advantage of situations and people without realizing how lucky I was to experience these treasures.

But then I thought about it a little more.  It turns out I did know what was going on.  I did know who I had in my life.  I was well aware of all these life-presents that were before me.

So if you are one of these people who truly fall into that category of not knowing what you have until it's gone, I suggest you reevaluate EVERYTHING because things can change soooooo fast.

That saying is BS! We know what we want, we just don't ever expect it to be gone.

I really hate the school system

Sometimes I feel like school is just wasting my time.  An intelligent way for them to get rich and leave me broke.

Sure, I can learn a lot about whatever I plan on majoring in but is it really necessary to take all of these general education classes.

I'm graduating soon, I've completed all the useless GE classes, and honestly, I feel like I've been ripped off.

Seems like nowadays, even getting a degree is useless.  I know it may not be true but why is it that a majority of people I know are often left having to go back home to live with their parents for a while until they can manage to make a decent living to become independent?

I know a lot of you out there can tell me all sorts of reasons why I should continue school and how it's beneficial.

You can agree with me but what I really need is inspiration/motivation, so if you have any to give, please do. No bull please.

ignorance really is bliss..

Would it be conceited to deem yourself as a person who knows too much?

Sometimes I feel that way.  Not in the sense where I believe i'm extremely intelligent and know every fact about everything there is to know, but in a way where i'm completely conscious of what is going on around me at any given time.

Sort of like a sixth sense.  I seriously envy those that are dense because they let so many things slide.  I mean, I guess in a sense, being really observant and overthinking every little thing can be beneficial.. but sometimes I really REALLY wish I didn't notice these things.

I'll just pretend this is a gift that will help me control peoples minds or something.

This post is extremely ironic by the way. *looks around*

It's about time I get organized

I find myself creating a cluttered mess all over the place.  My desktop alone speaks for itself.

I've managed to create an 'organized mess' all over the place.  Not only my clothing, electronics, documents -- but also my life.

I always put off organizing things because I say "i'll do it later."

When is later? I will... uhh, yeah.. um.... yeah.. later.

It's been years now. Literally over 5 years.

Bad habit is bad! Seriously, if you think about it, just focus on keeping organized at the initial point instead of tucking it away to deal with later on.

Life can be a little simpler that way.