school's out

Easy quarter this time around.

Next will be terrible.

What are my plans for this Winter break? Not much.

Actually it'll probably be dull for the first few weeks then it'll rise to awesomeness then quickly die back down.


Maybe i'll update this daily again... who knows!

Life at the moment

I may have scared a couple people with the last post. If you were one of them, take it as advice!

Weather is finally beginning to chill and it seems like it's time to bust out the jackets and sweaters.

I used to be big on fashion but as of late, i'm not too concerned about impressing anyone.  This may also be caused by my laziness and idgaf attitude.

It appears as though many people who were here before have disappeared or quit but I do wish to continue this blog because it's one of the only places I can speak my mind freely.

Hope you're all still alive after Black Friday!

Constant Fapping May Make You Suck in Bed

Do you frequently masturbate?

You've probably learned from many sources that masturbation is actually healthy for you.

Although this is true, many individuals don't realize what affect this may have on their sex life...

Trouble Sleeping

It's been years that I've faced this dilemma of sleepless nights so I finally thought I'd do something about it.

I recently bought Melatonin in hopes that it can help get me sleeping easier.  I didn't think this was too drastic a measure considering it's 'natural' so hopefully any side-effects will be extremely rare for me.

I tried one a few days ago and I must say that it was one of the best nights of sleep I've had in a while.  I woke up feeling completely rested and I was far from groggy.

As much as this miracle pill has helped me, I don't want to become dependent on it and would still like to try more natural ways.

Any tips?  Thanks.

Going back In Time

Have you ever thought about going back in time with the knowledge you have now?

I have always wanted to do that just for the hell of it. Ahhhh if only it were possible.

I swear I'd be such a smart-badass in preschool.

Hurry up time machines and get to earth already!

The Internet needs an upgrade

I've been getting extremely bored browsing around online.

There could be many reasons for this, but I feel like all content is so easily accessible so it's less appealing than it was before.

This isn't a complaint, I love the internet.

I just fear the monotony may become overwhelming with time.

What happens after the internet?

Actions speak louder than words

Some people talk. Less people do.

I see it all the time. The what if's, could have, should have.. etc.

Why not just take action?

You may say this is easier said than done, or you can actually start and get stuff done.

I'd like to be that person and I WILL.

Rain

I used to hate the rain.

It made me slightly depressed in a sense.. gray skies, loud thunder, heavy pouring.

But now, I like it.  Almost wish it would occur more often.

I like the nostalgic feeling it gives me, and the slight comfort from the sounds of each drop.  The thunder doesn't scare me much, and lightning looks pretty amazing.

Rain, come back! My car needs a wash.

Writers block

I don't really have writers block I'm just at a loss for topics.

I can easily write in this everyday about nonsense but I'm not too sure that'd be entertaining for anyone.  Maybe I should revert this back to what it was in the beginning, a blog about my feelings.

Yeah.

Well, I mean I have been doing that already but.. I guess i'm a bit more hesitant with the topics I post because there are actually people reading. (by the way, you are all awesome!)

Anyways, I've been changing a lot in my life recently.. hoping to be a bit more goal focused so I can get stuff done.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

My mind is like a line of ants

First off, I have a small ant problem in my bathroom.

Yes, I flush.

They seem to be coming from the bathtub faucet, which is really strange to me, and they're coming in and out for no apparent reason.

Anyways, I left a drop of honey out (before I knew where they were coming from) just to find them.  Few minutes later, a huge line formed. I wiped that honey off and killed the rest (sorry ant lovers).

I think the point of this post was to say that my mind is completely focused on getting something, unless someone cuts me off.

A.D.D. status to the max.

what goes through the mind of the naked person in class?

I'm currently enrolled in life drawing and for those who don't know, we basically draw humans.

Today, our first model showed up for us to draw.  He was quick to take his clothes off and stand in the middle.

Lots of giggles here and there from the classmates but he didn't seem phased by it at all.  I guess he's been doing this for a while.

He stood there, with all his stuff dangling in the cold as over 30 students stared at his naked body trying to copy it onto their drawing paper.

I wonder what he was thinking?  Seems so uncomfortable hahaha

that $$$ is halting me from being happy

No, I'm not talking about materialistic things that I HAVE to have or else I'll die, it's more of a constant stressor that's embedded in the back of my mind.

It sucks having to be frugal with money just so you have enough to pay rent and stay in school.  I'm not one to go out to eat on a daily basis nor am I one to buy spontaneously.  I wish I could, but there's really no room for any of that.

I guess I can be glad that there's a roof over my head for now.  I'm not sure how much longer I can take bread, water, and vitamins.

Long story short, screw you money! *looks for more jobs*

hot or cold? My body doesn't know

It's over 107 degrees right now and you can literally slap the heat by just moving a little.

Since the sun's draining all of my energy, my brain started thinking of random things.  Specifically, which would I choose to live in if I could only choose one -- extremely hot weather or freezing cold?

I sat here and thought seriously about each one.  There are pros with each but all were outweighed by their cons.    I still don't know which I'd choose.

Anyways, it's too hot to type right now so if you readers could only choose one, which would it be and why?

professors are confusing

I'm enrolled in a class where the professor presents us with a project but leaves out any detail of what she wants done.

She just wants to see what we can come up with.  This is either win or lose for the students because she may have a bias for certain designs so she will always give higher grades to those who do things the way she expects them to be done.

She also said the C students get farther in life.  It's as if she wants us to push for a C letter grade.

"Those who fail the most, succeed," she says.

I can understand the whole concept of doing things over and over until you get it right so that you can learn from past mistakes, but the way she gave her lecture made that point very confusing.

I guess she wants to use the C students to help her change her style or something.  Not sure what to think of this professor.

I'd announce something

It may be a bit more difficult for me to update this thing as much as before due to classes starting.

I want to give a formal apology to all my readers who are expecting a new post per day -- i'm sorry!

I'll try my best to keep this as updated as possible, though.  Thanks for all of your support, and I really hope this doesn't turn into a place where I get mad at homework/assignments! (I'm already dreading it)

Anyways, stay strong people! If you're feeling alone, just know I appreciate all of you. (cornyyyyyy but true!)

Is it really that wrong to be truthful to children?

Before you think that I hate children or anything, I really don't!

Some kids are actually really nice except those ones that are extremely misbehaved and attack you with toys and bite your face. (this did not happen to me by the way, just saying)

I'm well aware that morally, you should refrain from being too truthful with children.  I completely understand that fact, but I feel like there's a certain point when you should somehow encourage them to excel in whatever it is that you keep lying to them about.

Let's take dancing for example.  You tell a kid to dance and they do.  Sure their wobbly arms and constant jumping may seem cute, but really.. IT SUCKS -- but you can't tell them that. You begin to encourage them over and over no matter how bad they are.  Then they build this extreme confidence and think they're really good when they aren't.

I'm laughing as I write this because the topic does sound really mean.. but I honestly feel that if you tell them in a way that doesn't make them cry or kill their dreams, it's okay to teach them/tell them the correct way of doing things.

Just don't be a jerk to them when you do correct them!

I really hope i'm not the only one that feels this way. *dies*

'nothing' is a lie

What's wrong? Nothing. (followed by awkward passive silence and avoidance)

To give an answer like this is just asking for an unnecessary war.

There's really only a few times when the person genuinely means it when they reply with nothing.

that I need to calm down with my multitasking

If you've been following me for a while now, you probably have noticed that I always feel the need to do something.

I spend too much time thinking of ways to do everything at the same time instead of actually doing those things.

Why do I even plan a strategy to get multiple things done instead of just doing them? I know better than this, yet I continue to do it.

*slaps self*

Focus! Get it done! Then move on! You'll be amazed at how much you've accomplished!

There's an 80% chance I will disregard these proven methods that work for me. I seriously need to follow my own advice

There's way too many things that I want to do

I feel like I want to accomplish so many things, but at the same time I don't want to put the effort into doing it.

I guess it just feels so overwhelming.

It would be great if I was consistently organized and avoided procrastination.. but that's far from the truth.

I know I'll get to everything I can eventually, but I just wish i had that motivation to get at it as soon as possible.


If any of you readers have any time management/organization/success tips/motivational words, feel free to share!

you don't know what you have 'til it's gone

or do you?

I used to believe in this saying.  I felt like at times I do take advantage of situations and people without realizing how lucky I was to experience these treasures.

But then I thought about it a little more.  It turns out I did know what was going on.  I did know who I had in my life.  I was well aware of all these life-presents that were before me.

So if you are one of these people who truly fall into that category of not knowing what you have until it's gone, I suggest you reevaluate EVERYTHING because things can change soooooo fast.

That saying is BS! We know what we want, we just don't ever expect it to be gone.

I really hate the school system

Sometimes I feel like school is just wasting my time.  An intelligent way for them to get rich and leave me broke.

Sure, I can learn a lot about whatever I plan on majoring in but is it really necessary to take all of these general education classes.

I'm graduating soon, I've completed all the useless GE classes, and honestly, I feel like I've been ripped off.

Seems like nowadays, even getting a degree is useless.  I know it may not be true but why is it that a majority of people I know are often left having to go back home to live with their parents for a while until they can manage to make a decent living to become independent?

I know a lot of you out there can tell me all sorts of reasons why I should continue school and how it's beneficial.

You can agree with me but what I really need is inspiration/motivation, so if you have any to give, please do. No bull please.

ignorance really is bliss..

Would it be conceited to deem yourself as a person who knows too much?

Sometimes I feel that way.  Not in the sense where I believe i'm extremely intelligent and know every fact about everything there is to know, but in a way where i'm completely conscious of what is going on around me at any given time.

Sort of like a sixth sense.  I seriously envy those that are dense because they let so many things slide.  I mean, I guess in a sense, being really observant and overthinking every little thing can be beneficial.. but sometimes I really REALLY wish I didn't notice these things.

I'll just pretend this is a gift that will help me control peoples minds or something.

This post is extremely ironic by the way. *looks around*

It's about time I get organized

I find myself creating a cluttered mess all over the place.  My desktop alone speaks for itself.

I've managed to create an 'organized mess' all over the place.  Not only my clothing, electronics, documents -- but also my life.

I always put off organizing things because I say "i'll do it later."

When is later? I will... uhh, yeah.. um.... yeah.. later.

It's been years now. Literally over 5 years.

Bad habit is bad! Seriously, if you think about it, just focus on keeping organized at the initial point instead of tucking it away to deal with later on.

Life can be a little simpler that way.

I should be more conscious of who I trust.

Not a lot of people realize the fact that they neglect those who really care about them.

Let's pretend you were the person that was giving a loved one some advice.  You know you're important to them and that person also knows you feel the same way about him/her.   You spend a long time trying to provide them with helpful information to consider. You get into detail about everything in hopes that they trust your advice is from the heart, which to you, is the truth.

You stand by and watch them ignore the advice time after time. 

Somehow, you notice that they finally take your advice.  Shocked, you asked them what changed their mind.. or why they're starting to do what you said.

They reply with something like "oh (insert non important persons name here) said it'd be the right thing".

RAAAAAGE!! (cause you told them to do the same exact thing but they disregarded it until someone else told them the same thing)

Should you be mad? HELL YES.

Why do people ignore the ones that really care?  Why do they take another persons word over yours?

I'm guilty of it.  It has happened to me multiple times.

This is why I plan to prioritize people whom I ask advice from by how strong our relationship is.  More than likely, they're telling you the truth.

assumptions really do get you nowhere

living life assuming things will only lead to misunderstanding.

When you believe something without even bothering to ask, you need to rethink that belief.  More than likely, it's false.

Sure, anyone can have assumptions about others but when you know the person and actually talk to them, then why aren't you trying to see if what you assume is true or not?

If you want to keep your assumption a secret then that's fine; if you're acting in a negative way by holding on to that assumption about another person, then your judgement will forever be flawed until proven right.

I don't know why more people don't realize this.  If you're going to judge an individual because of an assumption you have about them when you can easily confront the person about it, then I'd hate to say this, but you fail at life.

Timing is really off right now.

I like her.

In fact, I think I more than like her. And Yes, I refuse to say the word.

I'm not sure what's keeping us in this relationship.  We have every reason to stay together, but we also have every reason not to.

It doesn't help that she's in a different State.  At least it's better than when she was in a different Country... or is it?

I'm not sure what I'm going to do, but I need to do it quick.

Would you believe me if I told you that I feel selfish for staying in this relationship because she has so much to offer and she might be wasting her time on me?

I know she cares about me as much as I do for her but I genuinely feel like I'm wasting her time.

I really care about us, but I don't want you to hurt anymore.

I'd write my thoughts somewhere.

having your life out there is pretty crazy.

you have to watch everything you do. EVERYTHING.

there are times when i just don't want to:

• watch what i'm doing
• care what people think
• edit all my posts
• use correct grammar
• be a little less than myself.

i'm surprised I didn't make this outlet sooner. hopefully this one will stay anonymous so that I can seriously just write from my mind without having to worry that someone I know will expose this to the world.

i am me. me is i. you are here. thanks for reading. thanks for caring.

just.. thanks for whatever reason you're here.

unless you're trollin!